لم يكن الخاطر بأنني غير محبوب هو ما جمّدني. فقد علّمتُ نفسي أن أستغني عن الحب. ولم يكن الخاطر بأن الله قاسٍ هو ما جمّدني، فقد علّمتُ نفسي ألّا أتوقع منه شيئاً. ما جمّدني حقاً أنني لم أكن أملك سبباً واحداً للتحرك في أي اتجاه. فما دفعني إلى اجتياز سنين كثيرة ميتة وعبثية كان الفضول. والآن انطفأ حتى ذلك.

“It was not the thought that I was so unloved that froze me. I had taught myself to do without love. It was not the thought that God was cruel that froze me. I had taught myself never to expect anything from Him. What froze me was the fact that I had absolutely no reason to move in any direction. What had made me move through so many dead and pointless years was curiosity. Now even that had flickered out.”Kurt Vonnegut — Mother Night